shes. leaving. me. "the whole family knows about what shes doing to you ashley. ive always known that shes selfish, and i dont know what youre going through. i was so shocked when i heard him talk to you that one thanksgiving" why do you think i dont come around to family gatherings anymore?it means he will be there. ive missed out on my family, some of my favorite people, for 3 years. shes. leaving. me. my heart aches. i think that there are some pains that you just never get over, and this is one, i can already tell, will be one of those pains. he looked at her and said that is she marries him, she is choosing to change her relationship with me. and she just stared at me. as if I were hurting HER. she is so oblivious. she doesnt get it. she thinks that i dont want her to be happy and that im this god awful person for not liking him. i do want her to be happy. i really truly do. but there is nothing that she or anyone else can say that is going to change my opinion on this. she is picking him over me. theres nothing thats going to take that away. my mother is leaving me. i love how she wonders why im selfish, coldhearted, difficult, all those things that she likes to tell me. i was raised this way. these are all learned behaviors. i am everything that she hates in my father. because everything she hates in him and me are the same qualities that she has in herself. she tells me that im just infatuated with aaron, that i dont know love. this is laughable when she barely comes up for air. after december 27, i am wiping my hands clean, i will only be interested in her wallet, and i will resume my cold hearted ways.