im trying my hardest here. functioning happily. picking out food for the reception. making sure she doesnt get this awful dress that makes her look like my 56 year old aunt is getting remarried. not being annoyed when our conversation comes to a dead halt when hes on the phone. ignoring his incredulous, condescending voice when he talks to me, telling me what to do as if he has a right to. not picking fights.

i have an anxiety that im horrendously malapropos. how could i not, when everyone is so highly offended when my words stumble out of my mouth, not even suggesting to themselves that they are simply misconstruing the heart of my speech?